Days by days over...
Kem Belia is coming...
RC Nite is coming...
Xmas Party (organised by Shean is coming)...
Screen test ( 3 performances) is coming...
Finding 10 targets for RC nite ''deadline'' is coming...

Everything is coming...
My life is completely COMPACT...
As my COMPACT means that I don't even have time to rest...
Perhaps you will be thinking:

'' You no time? Craps... you can type and post on your blog. This proved you don't have time?''

Yea, but.. typing post on blog only takes me a few minutes or even 10 minutes...
Sometimes I really cried out...
Tears unintentionally flowed out from my eyes...
Our school how come so weak?
Other schools like Kwang Hua, KU, STAR and Andalas, even only ''members of RC'' can be so active, how come SAMADians act like this?

Repeated and repeated, you might say I'm very lame, so what?
If it is true, I will say it too. I'm sorry if I'm annoying and irritating...

It is very harsh and hard to find 10 members.
Yea, 10 looks very little, count only maaa..
1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10..
But if you experienced to find participants to go yourself, its not the same...
I might joking crazily in front of my friends or during meeting...
But behind me, there's no one know what is happening...

I do LoVe RC, I wanna prove something to others...
Yea, I'm just a penolong IT...
Every hiasan and papan I do always get complains and compliments by others...
I changed and edited...
Yet endless complains and compliments...
I'm being critized, I'm emo, but I will never give up...

I always shout, I scare insects, I'm weak...
But I can tell you, mentally I'm not weak...
Physically is not mentally...
Do not look down me...
Even I cried in front you or my parents...

(I don't know what I'm talking but I'm expressing my exhausted feelings, hope you all understand, okays?)

My parents always scold me:

Everyday going HQ HQ HQ, Red Crescent really caused a lot problem for me. Everyday don't know practise what dance. Moreover, what's the purpose of kawad? Don't you remember next year is your SPM year, I never targeted you to get 8-10 A's, but at least you having 6 A's above. Now the world is reality, many top students also can't get work outside. People like ''you'' is all along the street, see your skin, you are darker compared to before.


My SPM year, ya mum, I know you always care me. What you do is for your son good. But please don't insult me and RC. Honestly, I don't like to study so much ( not meaning I don't like education, I do like study too). I just don't want the way of studying like 4-5 hours a day. I don't want my teenager life is full with education. I know, education makes a perfect future. I willing to learn more realife skills like PC in Red Crescent. At least you know that your son is learning something in HQ. Better than you can't find him and he always go out home until midnight then come back home. If you really busy nevermind, I can take transport to HQ whenever there are activities. I really never angry you, truthly. I love my friends, RC. It changed my life. I feel more responsible and dicipline compared to before. I'm not the Chee Hong before. I can feel I'm changing too. Last time I having worst temper. Perhaps now I become more responsible and learn to respect others.

Sorry too Shawn, sometime I'm being mischievious throughout the practice dance. But I'm addicted to be like this. I will changed my attitude okay? I don't dare to say in front of you. Hoping one day you will surf my blog and saw this. Thank you so much for teaching us Hip Hop dance. You are kind enough to teach us, sacriface your time and earn no income from us. I really appreciate you as my coast although I always complained about you.

Sorry Alvin too, sometime I'm being hyperactive and make you stead with Kui Yee. I hope you know this is a joke okay? I always tell myself and appreciate our friendship. Its not easy to overcome and solved our misunderstanding for 2 years and finally get into well friendship. I don't hope to have 2nd time like '' that'' again.

Sorry to Wing Yow, Khai Loon and Loo Teck, I'm being rude to you guys sometimes. Maybe my mouth is too itchy and always say unwanted things. Hope you guys can forgive me. I always act crazily and '' monkey'' but I do appreciate our friendship. Sometimes Khai Loon laugh crazily and I laugh like him too. I enjoyed our friendship. I'm glad to have you guys as my friends...

Same to Shean, Jeff, Zhong Yan, Wee Tat, Jason and others that I never mentioned, girls, my others friends in 4 Platinum and other classes (boys), you guys lighted up me.


I'm suffering but I NEVER GIVE UP.....!

Sunday, November 23, 2008; unforgotten.Y